“I learned that courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.” ~ Nelson Mandella

Fear effects your decisions. Fear hinders your abilities. Fear does not accomplish anything helpful or useful.

So, why do we hold on to it?

A few years ago, I battled with fear on a daily basis. I struggled with fear of the unknown, fear of failure, and fear of being rejected.  I minimized those fears as much as possible, and pushed them down deep inside, but there was one place that I just couldn’t hide from it all.

Every moment I stepped on a platform to lead in worship, I froze. I felt the weight of every gaze, and the glance of every eye in that auditorium. I wanted to run for my life. All eyes were on me, and I couldn’t hide.

For weeks I struggled with this developing fear.  I told myself to “woman up” and just step confidently on that stage, but moments later my mouth was dry, my hands were shaking, and I was reminded how weak I truly was.

Completely frustrated, I sat down in front of my piano at home and prayed. I poured my heart out to God, asking Him question after question. Why am I struggling with this? Why am I afraid? Why do I feel this way?

It was then that God whispered to my heart.

“It’s not about you.”

Wait, what? I’m telling You that I’m afraid, and I’m struggling! How could this be Your answer?

“It’s not about you.”

And then, I understood. The root of all of my fears came from worrying about other people’s opinions, of failing, of not being good enough, and not trusting God to work through me.

So what if I hit a wrong note? Who cares if a few people in the audience didn’t like my voice? I wasn’t the point of getting up on that stage, and if I thought I was, then I’d better find a different way to express my worship.

That moment, my fingers hit the keys, and I wrote this song.

Are you struggling with fear today? I want to encourage you to surrender those fears to the Lord. He is trustworthy! He is faithful! We are safe and secure in His hands.

“I sought the Lord and He answered me. He delivered me from all of my fears.”~ Psalm 34:4

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Photography by Ryan Arrington. https://typingphotography.wordpress.com/

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